Hi there.
It's brooke, if you don't remember who you are watching since I haven't posted in quite some time. I'm sitting here, 9.30pm October 10th, the day I took my last SAT ever, and I can't stop thinking about my Tomasaur. As you can see, I'm listening to still counting the days. And it's been 42. Egads. That doesn't sound very long, but it's enough for us to fall into a routine of not being in the same country anymore. It's tough and hell yea it hurts, but i've come to the conclusion that if it doesn't hurt, you don't care.

Now think about it. When have you been hurting? It was because of something that you cared about, wasn't it? It makes you wonder, what is it that makes us really feel? What compels people to cry? To quote another song that is important to me

"And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse?"

Ok, i'm sorry that this is getting to sentimental, but as you can tell, I'm in a mood. I'm learning about love here, and I'm in a crash-course picking up my lessons first hand, by living it. And honestly, I'm so scared to mess this up. This wonderful person has come into my life and I don't want to get something wrong. I'm not going to take a survey on how to live my life of look up love advice, but what I've learned I really need is a mentor. I have a mentor of sorts, but I wouldn't trust him in the realm of love- he's divorced. Yea. Not an option. I guess it's a lot easier to talk about big stuff like this when you're physically with someone, but I get to wait until Christmas.

Which brings me to my next point. The meet-up. I want to go to Germany SO so bad! I'm still trying to work it out with my parents, and need to find a way to get money, but it's really not all that expensive. A little over 500 USD. Got any work for me? Seriously, I'm goign to start looking at want ads. =/ Anyways. I've got a certain letter to work on, so I'll let you digest my current troubles and wrote again when you're hungry for more ;]

xxBroo